A rant in numerical format (mostly to vent my anger)...

1. Okay, why can't I develop crushes??? It's driving me fricken nuts that people two years younger then me get crushes routinely every few months! I haven't developed a crush on anybody for a year and a half. Anyone here have a clue as to why? I've been over the previous crush for six months at least (although I'm annoyed around her, because she limits my brain functions to nothing, and I can't work).

I guess my problem is I want a companion, but in my eyes, the problems associated with it are too immense for me to handle (like having to commit time to them, etc). I've also got this drive to stop myself from seeking people out (like in 1984). It's like "**** you society! I'm going to not love anyone and I'll kill anyone who attempts to stop me!" But, I've got a contradicting feeling to just go along with what everyone else is doing.

2. I've seen people become the happiest souls around, and then they break up their relationship a week later. What drives people to other people if they know in the back of their mind that it most likely be a disaster?

3. I'm probably going to write a satire on DCEmu with gdf again, all though it might be more mean spirited. It might not be a South Park episode, but we may fall back on it if we can't come up with something different.

I hope you have enjoyed A Trip Through A Lunatic's Mind, please wait until the vehicle has come to a complete stop. Thank you! :p

Ive been studying Sigmund Freud in my psychology class and according to him everything we humans do is sexually motivated....so maybe its the fact that your not sexually motivated? It kinda answers your second question which is because we humans seek companionship(sexual motivation) even if it means that its only for a short period of time. Your not a lunatic but you should consider some therapy lol

Everything we do is sexually motivated, eh?
I can understand it.
As it is our sole purpose.

ExcruciationX, you're not crazy and you don't need therapy.
You just think differently and you need a girl to understand you.

You don't need a crush.
You need a girlfriend.
Skip the crush part...step it up.

Sigmund Freud was okay. He had flaws though (like he only focused on crazy people), and he was a coke addict.

By crush I mean falling in love with somebody.

Whoa, whoa!

The concepts of crushes and love are two VERY separate things!

I guess what I mean is that the feelings for both are not here.