Originally Posted by
shadowprophet
How does one explain the history of ones life in a single posting.
My real name is Darren lee bray, early in my life I had problems relating to people. I was always a loner because people where too unpredictable, and undependable to rely on. I trusted in myself and only myself. I had no need or want for friends. just enough time to be left to my own thoughs and perceptions of the world around me. I wouldnt so much live through life as study everyone and everything around me, reserving all judgment untill I had completely figured my subjet out.
later in grade school I was thrown in the gifted classes. I thought surely there I would find people like me. people that understood that every action we make has a reaction and must be ploted out perfectly.
no, it was there that I learned that truly I was different for better or for worse. I didnt like the class or the stuck up people that thought they where better then everyone else in school. I asked to be put back into my regualr classes. and my teachers refused. so I simply refused to do any of my home work untill they did. eventualy they caved in and put me back into my regular classes.
it was at that time. I decided I wasnt like the stuck up people in the gifted classes, and yet I wasnt like the other kids either. so I began trying really hard to fit in even though some of the actions I took and things I did didnt make any sence to me.
Eventualy I got the hang of opening up and trusting people enough to socialize with them. in time I learned that its not so hard to trust people. because ultimately win or lose, life is about taking chances. if you never took that first chance. you may have never taken that first step, or spoken that first word.
growth is part natural and part choice.
have you ever see someone with a fake personality? no you havent...
people can be and grow into who ever they choose to be. its only a matter of choice. nature has very little a hand in the choices you make in who you become, that is mans ultimate gift. we can decide who we are and become that person.
and now im rambleing. ultimatley as I think back on my early years this was the most important thing I could say. Never let anyone limate you in any way, mentally, physically, or genetically. you have the choice to become anyone you wish to be.
no matter who that is.
Never let anyone tell you, that you are being fake or not acting like yourself, they dont know you as well as you do. be who you want to be, not what other people want you to be.
always.
